Music Monday

Todrick Hall singing Disney songs to the tune of a few favorite 90’s hits! This one makes my soul smile!

Hope you enjoy.

Much Love To All!


Music Monday Birthday!

I am a few hours late with this post but I still have to post it. I loved this man and do to this day. What better day to post a music video from JBJ than on his birthday?

This song means a lot to me. My classmates and I (in the 6th grade) sang this song together on the last day of school. We had had a very stressful couple of years and we were now moving on to middle school. It was emotional because we lost a very dear friend the year before and I don’t know about them, but I still hadn’t recovered. I still struggle with her death. She was my very best friend and an amazing spirit. She suffered from Spina Bifida but it was a complication from her MD that took her life.

This was the first death I had ever experienced. I was 11 years old when she passed (12 yrs old the day of her funeral). Yeah, that birthday sucked! Anyhow, my home life was chaos and I looked to her for strength. For hope. For a smile. And she delivered, every time. And she didn’t even know it! I wasn’t sure what I would do without her.

So I did what I always did when I needed to escape reality, I turned to music. Bon Jovi was played often. Ok, often is an understatement really. I was addicted. Between me and my cousin, we had every album he had released. We were the ultimate “directioners” back in the day. Today’s teens have no idea how to be a #1 fan! Hehe. Because of artists like Bon Jovi, I learned at a very young age Music is what feelings sound like!

So today I say Happy Birthday John Francis Bongiovi Jr and thank you for all your support throughout the years!

If it wasn’t Music Monday I would have written about Dr. Seuss. Today he would have been 111 years old. Happy Birthday Theodor Seuss Geisel and thank you for proving how powerful imagination can be. “Today you are you, that is truer than true. There is no one alive that is youer than you”…

Much Love To All!

Music Monday

I’m taking a break from posting mash-ups. Not an easy task for me because I have a great selection of them. But….

Introducing… Boyce Avenue.

If you haven’t heard these guys, you must check them out. This is one of their originals. It’s called “On my way”.

This album is amazing! They started out doing covers on youtube. That is where my sister and I found them. Alejandro, the lead singer, did a cover of “Bleeding Love” by Leona Lewis. I was hooked after seeing that video. I have seen them live several times and also had the chance to meet all 3 of them. That was back in the day, when tickets to their concerts were like 20 bucks and they were performing in venues that only held 50 people or so. They are very nice guys as well as talented. I saw them on America’s Got Talent. Not as contestants but they were the musicians on stage for the contestants.

I will probably post more of their songs/covers at some point.

I have another doctor’s appt tomorrow so I will save my health update for later on this week.

Much Love To All!

Music Monday

This week’s video is a youtube mashup that has gone viral. This couple is singing 2 different Taylor Swift songs at the same time. (Blank Space/Style)

I am not a huge Swift fan but I can certainly appreciate the talent in this video. mash-ups and medleys are my favorite. The ability to hear that kind of combo is not a talent that can be easily learned. Music is my bestie. Always has been and always will be.

I was riding in the car with my (adult) baby sister yesterday. She was flipping through my satellite radio and I noticed she kept stopping. I realized she stopped every time I started to sing along. I eventually told her not worry about stopping for me. I told her if she pauses for more than 2 seconds I would start singing along without even realizing it. Lol. I think she got her first real glance into my broad music taste in the car yesterday. I am proud to say we settled for Elvis radio and she loved it! Not a surprise, as Elvis is one my dad’s favorites! Now that I think about it Elvis will probably be one of my future Music Monday videos.

Hope you guys enjoy this video as much as I do!

Much Love To All!

What do you gain when you lose – Part 1.5

I planned on making a sequel to my last blog “What do you gain when you lose”.  The problem is I made an exciting breakthrough yesterday and although this belongs in the list of things I have “gained”, I feel like it deserves an entire blog for several reasons.

So yesterday I was in session with my therapist and as we were talking she said something to the effect of “well that’s due to your “hypersensitive personality”…. I didn’t know the definition of that phrase so this is what I heard….

“Chill out woman. You are too sensitive. You care too much about what people think of you. You take everything everyone says way too personally. You cry too easily and your life would be a-okay of you weren’t all of these things. It’s your fault you are unhappy”

Based on the context of our conversation and what I have learned since our session, that is NOT what she meant at all. Here is a list of signs that point to hypersensitivity. Can you answer yes to any of these questions?

  • Can you hear things others sometimes can’t, especially high-pitched sounds? Or before they do?  I can’t count on one hand how many times I have turned the radio down in the car because I thought I heard sirens, while my passenger looks at me weird, and as soon I turn the radio back up and we get back to our chat, we are at a dead stop so an ambulance can pass.
  • What about smells? Do you notice them in the same way as sound or maybe they overwhelm you but your friends hardly notice the smell? Smell has always been a significant part of my life. Pleasant or unpleasant, I notice!  I know that sounds weird but it’s true. Certain smells trigger an emotion, based on an event I’m sure. But not the memory just the emotion. I can tell when one of my friend’s changes perfume/cologne.  I’m very sensitive to unpleasant smells for sure. You can’t PAY me to cook ground turkey in my house. Can’t and won’t do it.  I smell every bite of food that I put in my mouth, ESPECIALLY if it’s a new food or if I didn’t cook it myself.  My family has always made fun of me for that one…
  • Do you get “overwhelmed” with joy when you experience true beauty?  No I am not talking about Ryan Gosling. I am talking about an overwhelming joyful feeling about a beautiful experience. A sunset, a great song or musical performance,… Everyone in my life knows I would probably stop breathing without music. No joke! They say you can tell what kind of mood someone is in by the music they are listening to. That is not true at all for me. Sometimes I can download a song, listen to it 100 times and I still can’t tell you what the artist is singing about. I just haven’t paid as much attention to the words as I have that piano in the background, tone/soul in the voice, beat of the drums…etc. I can not relate at all to the song “Stay with me” by Sam Smith. But that song makes me cry every time I hear it. And sometimes it’s just the opposite. The music in the background doesn’t move me but those lyrics are so poetic and thought-provoking I can’t stop listening to it.
  • Do you know what other people need before they ask?  How often does someone jokingly ask if you are a mind reader? For me, it’s often. I am not referring to an obvious need like when a 3-year-old is dancing around holding their crotch. It doesn’t take a psychic to know they probably need to go potty.  I mean like when PC walks in the room and I remind him that he left his car keys on his computer desk and he says “How did you know that’s what I was looking for?”.
  • Do you feel uneasy or threatened in big crowds or cities?  A lot of people have a problem with crowds and while many of them have a totally different reason for their anxiety, I am sure some of them feel this way because of their hypersensitivity. For the latter, it can be the sound that comes from big crowds. Whether it be the volume or the variety of noises, it can be overwhelming. Intuition also plays a part in this one. If you suddenly get that feeling in your gut that you should step out from under the bleachers, by all means DO IT!  It could also be the smells. All of your senses are on high alert in these situations and can easily become overwhelming. For me, this one depends on the activity and location. I didn’t even notice there were other people around me while I was at the P!NK concert with my cousin. It was just me, my cousin and P!NK…      🙂
  • Do you have an “emotional” radar?    Are you the only one at the party that noticed Jane Doe get upset when her husband grabbed another beer? She didn’t say a word or  roll her eyes or even sigh out loud. Somehow you could just tell? And in some hypersensitive people they are now angry at him too. Have you walked into a room and immediately felt tension? Some people can’t!!!! I did not know this! I swear I thought this tension everyone talks about was OBVIOUS to everyone. Not just some but to everyone. So if I tie this into my life, so many things make sense now! That text from my family member I mentioned a couple of blogs ago….It was not an obvious “below the belt” comment to HIM! It sure was to me but not to him. My anger towards that situation literally disappeared when I realized this…
  • Do you have allergies, eczema or asthma? I have not always experienced any of these in an extreme way. never had asthma or eczema. I used to have severe migraines as a child and never got an answer about why. The older I get the more I react to allergens in the air but not in an extreme way. My skin has changed dramatically as well but I attributed that to age and hormones. I still wanted to mention this one because it is important to remember that stress can express itself in physical ways. These are the most common in my opinion.
  • Is a peaceful environment important to you?   Do you feel more stressed when your house is a mess? I have a hard time sleeping when my bedroom is a wreck. Personally I can handle organized and crowded. However, if it’s UNorganized and crowded, I am too uncomfy to fall asleep.
  • How often do you want to rip off your bra during the day?  I don’t mean as soon as you walk through your door at home. That could be attributed to habit. I mean while at work or running an errand. Are you counting down the minutes until you get home? This one can have another explanation for me as well. My girls are not exactly small and manageable. I believe it is impossible to create a comfy bra in my size, I have tried so many. This sign is just an example of an extreme sensitivity to touch. Maybe it’s not your bra but your tags. For me it’s my hair. I always have a rubber band around my wrist (in my purse and in my car) because I have to put my hair in a pony when the hair on my neck gets too uncomfortable but soon after doing so, my head is so uncomfortable (specifically where the pony is) I have to take it out.
  • Does the sun make you sneeze? This is another one my family has always made fun of me for. Almost every time I get out of my air-conditioned car I have the urge to sneeze. I live in the toasty state of Texas so I believe going from cold car to hot outdoors causes the urge. Either way, All I have to do is stare at the sun for 2 seconds and there ya go. This also works indoors though. I have used the fluorescent light in my kitchen to force a stubborn sneeze out.

So here is the bottom line. Anything that is absorbed by the body or psyche may cause havoc to anyone. But, to the HSP (highly sensitive person), the risk is much higher. Energies associated with touch, noise, scent, light, etc. are often too quickly or deeply absorbed. Hypersensitivity is also associated with a heightened sense of awareness and intuition. It is a gift as well as a curse but as with anything, knowing is the most important part. Once you know this is your personality, or at least consider it, you are able to “gain” some more of that wonderful perspective. I am grateful to my therapist for explaining this to me.

Much Love to all!


Will she be helpful?



Today is my appt with the new gyn. I am excited because I hear great things about her. I am also anxious because deep down inside I am hoping she has some sort of quick fix but I am well aware there is no quick fix. In spite of these mixed emotions, I have been in a pretty positive mood lately. Maybe the dark clouds are rollin’ outa town soon, I don’t know.

PC and I attended our nephew’s 12th birthday last weekend. I hadn’t gotten much sleep the night before but then again I never do. Either way, I think I handled it well. I was more “like myself” at this family gathering than I have been in quite a while. I still can’t explain why these get-togethers are so hard for me. I don’t believe it’s  just the fear of another announcement. I think with all the sadness and negative feelings IF has brought into my life, I simply have no more room. No more room in my head or heart for negativity, anxiety, sadness, or whatever other surprise emotion that might be in store. Heck, I don’t need a family function to feel those things. Just this morning I heard a report on the news that some high school (don’t remember which state) added a section in their yearbook this year to acknowledge the teen moms!! From what I could tell these teen mothers are being acknowledged because they were able to stay in school and graduate. I froze. My whole body froze when I heard this.Are you kidding me? They made the yearbook because they had a baby? Some people have suggested that by doing this, the school is glamorizing teen sex and parenthood. That is not the reason I think this is ridiculous though. Obviously teens were already having sex before this yearbook section was added. The number of “kids having kids” has been consistently rising for years! Others say these young mother’s deserve to be praised for continuing their education, for overcoming this “obstacle”!!! Maybe that’s why this story rubbed me the wrong way. Obstacle??? Okay, I agree they deserve some praise for staying on the straight and narrow and doing what is best for their child. That’s great. But should it be their whole school praising them? Is that the appropriate place to acknowledge this achievement? And I pray they did not use the word “obstacle” in the yearbook. Is it still considered an obstacle if it was a choice?Oh, I better stop before I write an entire book on this subject. So you see….. I get fired up just by watching the damn news. Stories about people I don’t even know. It feels worse when the things that get me “all fired up” are so close to home and begin at a family gathering. Bottom line…I consider this birthday party a victory. A small victory.

Much Love to all!